velvet

"...the sea is a collector, quick to return a rapacious look. There are others besides you who have worn that look--"
~~Marianne Moore, because i like to remember that i'm not invisible

'Don't believe in love' by Dido because, o boy, it's as if she took a page out of the diary i don't keep.

Rocky Balboa, because it is one of my favorite romantic movies...and i hate romantic movies.  

hiya gang.  short entry tonite.  kind of cheating, really. i'm going to list things i like.  i feel bad for seeming like a real grump in my last few entries (still pissed about cancer.  it just claimed a pal i know who is 19 years old.  she's not even old enough to drink away reality for a time.  so yea, still pissed, yea.)

here are some neat things.

-sock monkeys

-gardenias.  i was at the opera tonite.  there was an old fella, in a wheelchair and bad state, but bless his sweet biscuits, he wore a vibrant and fragrant gardenia on his lapel.  no other flower like the gardenia.  looks like it should be strong with its thick waxy leaves and substantial petals, but one touch and it turns brown.  there's a huge metaphor in that flower.

-email and cocktail waitressing.  neither involve talking on the telephone, and both allow you to stay a safe distance from your audience (and still look super-fine).

-pie. there's an episode of 'Pushing Daisies' in which the gal with the voice asks the gal with the bangs if a 'pear pie with gruyere cheese baked in the crust' would make her feel better.  i feel better just thinking about it.

-cake. champagne cake, specifically (my gal pal made one for my birthday that made me cry it was so awesome)(thanks sweet lori)

-mustard

-wearing necklaces in my bubble bath

-slow dancing in a spaghetti strap dress, super super if it's orange.

-green high heels

-birthdays

-istvan banyai's sense of humor and smell

-grey hair

-lipstick

-bath robes

-sleep

-age

-priests who smoke

-large noses

-soil

-the sound of gravel under foot

-corvettes

-saturday morning

-the sound of a dog snoring

-pearls

-cardigans

-bernie mac

-the pizza at Carinos in la jolla.  best in california. 

-old-fashioned microphones

-dancing with abandon

-zero phone calls

-someone happy to see me, genuine

-jellyfish

-fireplaces

-great heights

cheese louise, this list could just go on and on, but i'm a bit sleepy. 

thanks for sticking with...and, maybe try to do what i do and think of 5 things for which i'm thankful.  i try to do it in the morning, but sometimes it only works after a long day.